Day 11: Dear Baba

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Today, I will share with you a page from my journal (I don't share everything, you know. There are some things I still have to sort out and some things really just for me.)

                                                                                                                              April 5, 2018

                                                 Raj Rishi #28, Gyansarovar                                                                         Mount Abu, Rajasthan                                                                                  India  

         

Dearest Baba, 

 

Today, while walking across the corridors of Diamond Hall I suddenly feel in my heart that I love You- not the head-over-heels kind of love.  This one’s painted over a canvas of self-love so it’s stronger, not needy and definitely more mature. 

 

It's not that I don't love You.  It's just that it has always been "Please love me so I can learn to love myself" or "I'm so grateful I know You".    

 A few days before I left for Madhuban, I felt that           I love myself- strengths, flaws and all. 

 

Finally! I've been working on it for years.  It feels as though I've moved from point A to point B in my spiritual life.  Thank You for patiently guiding me to this important pitstop.  

Given such a high starting point, I wonder what my inner journey here in Madhuban will be like.  It has generally been pleasant and steady-  no expectations, no burdens, and no complaints.

 

And, it’s so fitting that the climax of this trip is a subtle yet deep realization that I love the Divine.                                                                                                                                    Love,                                                                                     Karen   

Dadi Janki on Love

Day 10: Fire of Yoga

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Today I'm fascinated with tapasya, the fire of yoga.  This is akin to reaching gold's melting point (which is very high at 1,064 degrees Celsius).  Here, the yoga is so intense that the impurities (alloys) that have accumulated in the soul (gold) are removed.  So, I set out to experiment with it today.

I’ve experienced it before.  It’s the point when I stop thinking and simply experience being a soul in the company of the Being of Light.  

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When it happens, 

I feel I am beyond sound... 

beyond space...beyond time...

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It's the point of complete stillness.  I am not thinking.  I simply bask in the experience of love, power, purity, happiness or peace.

At one point, I feel I am nothing yet I am everything.

Today though is not that day.  Yes, I can steer my mind in the direction I want.  Yes, my mind is clear but it can’t reach the highest form of yoga yet.  I simply feel that it’s easy to detach from the things of this world and remember the Divine with love.  

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In keeping with my newly found 

self-love, I tell myself, 

"For today, this is enough."    

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Dadi Janki, head of Brahma Kumaris talks about silence.

Day 9: Blessing upon blessing

“You are the soul with deep love.  Love means everything is already accomplished, it means to stay beyond questions.  Everything has already happened and is just being repeated.”

Today, I received this blessing and it affirmed me so much I feel I’m ready to go home even if I still have 5 days here in Madhuban.

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So, I thought I will share with you the other blessings I got this trip.  Please feel free to take your pick.  May it bless you as much as it has blessed me.  

“Although working behind the scenes, you provide 
leadership through your example.”

“You are constantly merged in God's love.”

“You face storms with the deep serenity 
of knowing they will pass.”

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“Fly with the wings of zeal and enthusiasm 
on the basis of your courage.”

"You are constantly full 
and you also do the service of making others full."

"Become full of the experience of every virtue, every power and every point of knowledge and the sparkle of 
zeal and enthusiasm 
will constantly be visible on your face." 

"Remain constantly stable on the seat of authority and you will become an easy, a constant and natural yogi."

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                    "You are a yogi soul                         who gives the vision of the power of your mind 

with the mirror of your face."

"You have a spiritual life because 

you transform your attitude and vision."

"You understand that obstacles are not obstacles, but a means of moving forward."

 "You remain beyond questions 

so you are constantly happy." 

meditation by Release Your Wings