Wednesday, November 1, 2017

"Wala kang kaluluwa"


Let me translate that for you. 


You don't have a soul.


"So, what am I?", I asked wide-eyed and bewildered when my meditation teacher told me this.   


In my head, what I was really saying was, "Are you saying that I am nothing!!! How dare you! So, do I belong to the devil now?!"


You don't have a soul because you are a soul.

Now, I'm confused.  


She sensed my inner turmoil and  started to explain.


"All this time, you thought you were a body with a soul.  You see it's the other way around.  You are a soul with a body."


I still don't get it.  So, she asked me. "Can you please describe yourself?"


So, I rattled on...

I am Karen.
I am a daughter, a sister, a friend...
I work at  ____________.
I am from _____________.
I have _______________.


"See, you identify yourself with your false I.  You think that you are your position, your roles, your possessions.  All of these are connected to the body- all perishable when you leave your mortal coil. All false."


"So what is true then.", I queried.


"Then, answer this for me.  Think of your favorite part of nature and 3 adjectives which describe it... Now, describe yourself. Like a ______, I am..."


So, I answered.


Like a mountain.
I am strong.
I am stable.
I am giving.


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"See, that's who you truly are.", she replied beaming.





P.S.  This is lesson 1 in meditation.  I learned this 8 years ago.  Recently, Sister Tims of Center for Spiritual Learning, Tagaytay reminded me of this lesson when I sat in her lecture.



P.P.S.  Happy All Souls Days! Now, you know this day's for you, too. ;)  


meditation from Release Your Wings