|Cartoon from http://lastlemon.com/harolds-planet|
I'm usually a sensible person. I'm in and out of facebook- making sure I'm not scrolling the newsfeed for more than 30 minutes on the few times I log in (and that's goes for other online social media- youtube, twitter, etc), I never play online games (or any video game for that matter), I've said my goodbye to the dvd player and videostreaming a long time ago but for some weird reason the tv just got me hooked (Please see The TV Took Me Hostage to know the full story). I couldn't quite put my finger on it. So, I did more soul searching to understand why I am doing what I'm doing (since I'm a self-development junkie, I just really need to know).
So, I looked back at my previous patterns. I saw that if there's something I couldn't handle- I sleep. If I came across a roadblock- I run away. If a bigger-than-life opportunity comes my way, I cringe.
After facing myself squarely, I realized that I allowed the TV to take hold of me because I couldn't quite pull myself together. I was not powerful enough to turn the remote off because I am afraid of facing the opportunities in front of me. I lacked the will and strength to change so I revert back to an old habit. Also, I wanted to reach the goal but I don't like to put in the work involved to get there. Like infamous Juan Tamad (Lazy Juan), I opted to sleep under the guava tree hoping that the fruit will miraculously fall straight to my mouth. I took the easy route- stall and escape!
The TV allowed me to go just that, lull my mind and go brain-dead for a few hours. It allowed me to simply dream of the fruit and prevented me from climbing the tree so I can get the guava right away. It brought everything to a halt just like sleeping.
In actuality, the culprit's not the TV afterall, it's my fear and laziness.
Yay, now I know the root cause! Since realization is the first step to change, now, I only need to gather the courage to do the right thing -again and again until I form the habit of just moving forward towards the goal, not minding the hurdles.
|Cartoon from http://lastlemon.com/mahoney-joe|