Friday, December 26, 2014

And so this is Christmas

The click of the keyboard made me nostalgic.

It's been a long while since I visited this place.  I have a good reason though---FOCUS. 

Since early November until December 23, I've been putting all my energy on the calendar's release- a project of  Special Achievers, the non-profit organization my colleagues and I started.  So when I'm not working (in the clinic cause the NGO's my hobby) or healing my old but still useful body (which cannot function without it's 10 hours of daily sleep. btw, i'm not complaining, just stating a fact), I'm coordinating with the sponsor, meeting with the graphic designer, e-mailing the editor, talking to the artists' parents, answering interviews, etcetera, etcetera.  Yes- it's a lot but I enjoy every bit of it.

For a long while, you see, I cannot find my place in the sun.  I have this humongous heart that wants to give but I do not know what to do with it.  

So, like a headless chicken I was running around looking for that one thing I was meant to do.  Fortunately, I got into meditation which calmed me down.  

Then, I realized I want to be a monk.  I would really be very happy and content if all I do in this lifetime is open the door of the retreat center.   But, the Director had other plans for me- at least for now.  Hence, the NGO came into being.  

Why am I telling you all this?  I really don't intend to.  Just thinking out loud and writing it all down to help me process things.  You see, this is something I have let go of.  Now, it's handed back to me.  I guess, this is my gift this Christmas.

Dear God, I am not sure I can take on this big responsibility but how can I not accept what you want me to do?

Miggy, one of the 10 special artists featured in the calendar poses with his artworks
photo from Special Achievers


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