We've seen each other during retreats and meditation classes, but we've never really sat down and talked. We've only exchanged smiles until this day.
We had lunch together at the center in Tagaytay. As usual, she came in sans make-up and the celebrity status. "I'm really a quiet person", she opened up. I wanted to retort back, "I am too. So, bye I'll leave you with your thoughts".
But something held me back, instead I asked a question then another and another until I got to know her story.
"I always hear sing from the soul. I don't really know what that means until I learn to meditate. Before, when I sing it's only the body which sings but now every fabric of my being sings", she shared.
You see, in raja yoga meditation, the first concept taught is that of "om" (I am a soul). I am a being of peace, power, purity, love and bliss. I am here in this world to simply express and experience these qualities. However, as we go through life's journey we forget who we really are. Meditation teaches us to simply go back to who I really am (a soul).
She then related that pursuing what she loves was a difficult process. "I was raised and trained to be a business person. I finished business school. Afterwards, I worked in the corporate world for five years. But, it was not a world I want to be in. In my heart, I am an artist."
How did you move from corporate to showbiz?, I queried.
"There was a year when I withdrew from everything. I didn't speak at all and would only use sign language to communicate. I kept on working on the family business but in my head I was planning my career. I was dreaming and building everything in my mind"
Anthea Church, author of Inner Space had a similar experience. She called it digesting time. She wrote, "It cleared my mind so that when my moment came, I could hear clearly"
The same moment came to Timmy Cruz when she clearly knew that she had to follow her passion. She had to run away from home though. Without her family's support, little savings and fierce determination she carved a name for herself in only a year and a half.
It was not easy though. To make sure that she survives until the next gig she would only spend P50 a day on herself and save everything else. As much as she can, she would eat at the event where she is performing so she saves on food. And, she never revealed her age. In an industry which worships youth, admitting that she is already 26 years old when she started her career is suicide.
How did you make it?, I asked. I really wanted to know her route- step by step (just so i know but trust me I'm not planning on being a celebrity)
"I simply followed my heart", was her short reply.
I guess, it is true what they say when the why is big enough the how is easy.