Around this time last year, I wished for power.
"Since I've mastered self-love (i thought), it's best if I can complement it with power.", I told myself.
So, I jotted down what power looks like for me:
- making things happen
- doing what I say I'll do
- being on time
- showing strength of character
- being in command
I also listed my affirmations:
- I am strong.
- I make things happen.
- I am disciplined.
- I am powerful!
Then, I looked for role models and did the work:
- I attended retreats and camps on leadership.
- I interviewed changemakers.
- I rolled-up my sleeves and worked on projects (so I can practice making things happen).
- I had to wait for what seems like forever.
- I had to knock on so many doors and hear 9 NOs before I get to the 1 YES.
- I had to let go of something valuable to inch towards a short-term goal.
- I had to face many naysayers.
- I even have to fight enemies!
There were moments when:
- I was at a lost.
- I felt alone.
- I didn't think I can do it.
- I wanted to give up.
- I was seething in anger.
My year was so intense, it felt as though I was in a war zone.
Yes, I was doing what I love but there were so many oppositions, sacrifices and difficulties.
I was hell-bent though. I pulled out my inner arsenal of strength, determination and resilience. It helped that I have a fierce army behind me, too. Together, we triumphed.
Life, The Universe, The Divine take you seriously when you commit- I learned.
I asked for power. So, I was given challenges so I can experience my own power. There was no magic wand which can conjure power with a simple abracadabra.
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2019 taught me that:
- I don't need to chase power. I simply have to step into it.
- I have to be worthy of it though like Thor with his hammer.
- Like the superheroes, I can never really know powerful I am unless I face obstacles and villains.
So, as you make your wish for the new year, be careful. More often that not, your heart's desire will not be handed to you on a silver platter. You have to earn it!
