Some things hit you like a cold shower when you're barely awake. I've been browsing through the book Heal your Mind and Body by Dr. Chandrashekhar and Azeem Dana. The chapter on psychosomatic diseases catch my attention. Since, I have colds right now I quickly check if it's part of the list. In bold letters, it says: COLDS Indecisiveness, need to make decision and not doing so, feeling sorry for self and wishing to delay activity. Pak! I felt like I was given a cold shower. I admit it, the words went through me like a sword. Instead of going through my usual process of looking inward, asking myself, analysis and over analysis, I simply stopped the barrage of questions, got my phone and made the call I've long been stalling. Today I learned that even if the plans are not perfectly laid out and I'm still doubting yourself, I have to make a move.
“If you know yourself but not the enemy, for every victory gained you will also suffer a defeat.”
― Sun Tzu, The Art of War
I just came from battle- not a physical one or the virtual online games (I find it boring and senseless) but from some internal struggle.
I did say before that it is inevitable on the path of self-development. Whether I like it or not, I really have to confront my dark side (I know it sounds eerie but it's true.). What I've found out of late is that the enemy also hides behind beautiful masks.
Taking Sun Tzu's advice, I 've unmasked my enemies:
1. The Time Thief: The television
Other forms: on-line streaming, on-line games, videos, youtube
Lure: "Time to take a break from your busy schedule, come sit with me for a while"
Effect: Makes me brain-dead
Steals: My Time
2. The Mindnapper - The cellphone and other gadgets
Other forms: facebook, instagram, twitter, pinterest and other social media apps
Lure: "Hey, look at the interesting things other people are doing!"
Effect: It distracts me with entertainment & information I don't really need.
Steals: My Mind
3. Time Space Warp- The bed
Other forms: vacations, frequent naps, oversleeping, stalling, excuses
Lure: "You need to rest."
Effect: It lulls me in deep slumber so I can escape reality. Steals: My Present and ultimately my Future
I'm not saying it's detrimental to sleep, go on vacation or use the phone and other facilities. What I observe in myself though is that I run to these things all too often whenever I'm afraid or escaping my truth. (Thank heavens, I've killed my addiction!) But, just when I've thought I've slayed my monsters, they keep on challenging me again and again. They are like the Hydra of Greek mythology whose head multiplies when slashed.
I still believe that the enemy lies within but these illusions trigger my old bad habits and patterns.
How about you, do you know what your triggers are?
P.S. I feel that all of these triggers steal my time, my mind, my present & my future when used indiscriminately.
